Life eats me whole



Autism Parenting. This Struggle is Real.


Dear Anyone who’s not an autism parent but trying to understand autism parents,

You know those moments in life when you’re hurt that a mean kid was not so nice to your child?  Or how horribly difficult the “terrible twos” were?  How much you struggled to keep your shit together as you tried to control your possessed kid in public.  How cruel people in public can be for giving you the bad parent/bad child glare?  What about having to de-code wth your life insurance or retirement plans mean?  Or worse, a store, party venue, restaurant or insurance company denying coverage, denying return of a bad item, dismissing bad customer service.  Having to escalate it to management?  Remember that bad year when your child that horrible terrible no good, very bad teacher?!  Phew thank goodness that was just one school year.  How sad you were when your youngest was delayed compared to all their friends when it came to sports?  But now ecstatic you were when he finally got that ribbon from swimming to the next level, even though it took him longer than every other 5 year old?

Autism families go through similar pains everyday, every hour, every week throughout their lives.  Not occasionally but everyday.  The struggle is so very real.  It’s exhausting, depressing, disappointing.


I’m not being sarcastic nor belittling the issues, hardships, obstacles we all face as parents and human beings.  Special needs kids or not.  I’m simply trying to help non autism parents understand the intensity of the other side.

(Pic above I took the other day when we finally got some rain and thunder in Northern California.  I love the rain, the comfort it brings, the beauty, the calmness the sound of rain drops.  The road ahead is a long, dark, bright with many bumps and detours for many autism families.)

Fall at the Beach


Despite Andrew’s annual IEP, regional center meeting, insurance speech eval for redetermination of services & reapplying for mediCal all occur in Fall I still really love the beauty of the season.
Disagreeing, advocating, arguing, underrepresented, not understood, one man team, preaching to choir, overly explaining, apologizing, thanking, asking.  That’s what autism moms do on ongoing basis with e v e r y o n e.  It’s exhausting.  It’s alienating.  It hurtful.  It’s being on a l l  t h e  t i m e.
(Pic of Andrew’s lil pumpkin he brings everywhere.  He dug a hole at the beach for his orange buddy.)

Autism Moms & Men in Combat have the Same Level Stress

autism moms in combat

If the creator of this icon pic sees this, please comment below for credit.  I found this on Pinterest and thought to share this.  It’s really sad and scary but a shocking reality that us autism moms face.

Below is the article on the study that the University of Wisconsin-Madison completed.  Sad to see that the stress in our lives compare to men in combat.  However, when a friend of family member just doesn’t “get it” please show them this.  I often find myself at loss for words when trying to get close friends and family to understand where I stand.  No one ever will unfortunately, except for those who stand in your shoes.  However, it would be helpful if people can take a peek into our struggles.  This explains the intensity we go through daily.  Stay strong mamas!!!

the article:…/autism-moms-and-combat-solders-ha…

Taking Care of Yourself First

I decided to make a separate tab where I show off how I indulge, create, take care of me.   After all, they do compare us Autism Moms to Men in Combat!!  There is that saying where it goes something like, You must take care of you before you can be there for your children.  Yes I get it but that doesn’t always happen.  However, when I do find things I love to do I indulge BIG TIME and get STUCK to gain some of that ESCAPE and THERAPY even if only for a short time, it’s better than no time.  Geez I sound like a drug addict but I’m more like a shop-aholic.  Enjoy!  I hope you get some get ideas on how to self indulge or teach me a few other ways to escape this autism reality.  I’ve added the most recent posts about these wonderful hobbies of mine but going forward (as I get lazier) just please look under “taking care of yourself first” category on the right hand side of the home page.

Whipped or wiped out?

My husband accidentally wiped my calendar out during syncing. The stress drove me to Starbucks for a Venti skinny cinnamon dolce latte…with…whip.


Bare Essentials Birthday Gift

Got this free with my warmth purchase at bare essentials today since my birthday was last week.  Small things, especially when free,gives me the giggles!  Doesn’t take much to entertain me I guess.  I googled this and learned there are hundreds of reviews on Macy’s and Nordstroms.


Alex and Ani Autism Puzzle Bracelet

TBT.  I had featured this on my IG for April AutismAwareness month in honor of my son.  Alex & Ani puzzle bracelet from Nordstrom.  So in love with this gorgeous piece.  I’m all about trendy, environment friendly, good cause and affordable designer brands. Thank you A&A for this awareness bracelet!

Yes I was rockin’ out blue gel nails on autism awareness month!


Beautiful Autism Puzzle Piece Necklace

I love this puzzle pieces necklace from Princess P’s online store for $14.99!  I’ve been looking for a cute & trendy necklace like this for long time, so I’m ecstatic. I’ve searched and could never find one like this.  Most of the ones I saw were huge puzzle pieces or had imperfect shapes.  Thank you to Andrew’s school therapist, who was wearing this one day when I picked him up!


Autism Moms Be Like…Drinks Anyone?




Loneliness is…

Being out in public with a close friend or family  who’s with you and your autistic child.  Your child is  whining, crying, on the verge of a tantrum OR your child is hyper, scripting, disturbing others.  AND in both situations people are staring, your blood is boiling, your anxiety just went off the roof, and you’re getting stressed and desperate because it just won’t stop.  Yet, that person.  Right next to you.  Your friend.  Your family member.  Your spouse.  He or she  is oblivious to all the pain you and your child is experiencing.  Has no clue what so ever as to what is occurring.  That is pure loneliness.