My Sweet Heart

I love him more than words can ever describe. His smile and thick black hair frame his soft skin and single sweet dimple.  His angelic smiley eyes.  His thick soft lips.  His nose identical to mine.  “I’m trying my best,” he says as he plays his clarinet.  “Mommy was I good today?” as he wants to please me. “I love you so much Mommy. Hug and a kiss.”  His words to me every night before bed.  The happiness and gratitude that spills from big heart when he’s thankful for something he’s been asking for.  All 9 years old of him.  My tall muscle toned model of a boy.  He eats all day plays all day.  He laughs and scripts.  “Anthony, let’s play with the cats.”  Little boys at the park chase and follow him.  My adventurous no fear son who yearns for speed as he takes in the wind as he whooshes past everyone on his bike.  As he jumps with all his energy balled up and released into the water.  “Look how far I swim Mommy!”  “One more minute.  After this race!”  My xbox and you tube obsessed kiddo.  My love for this kiddo is never ending, just like his passion for his nascar and Kyle Busch.  I’m beyond lucky to be his mom.  He’s my sweetheart.  He stole my heart the minute he was born.

Some Art in Our Lives

With the last heavy posts, I decided to lighten things up a little.  I update this page (Some Art in Our Lives) under Menu.

One of my favorite hobbies is to semi-make artsy craftsy stuff for my boys’ parties.  Birthdays and school holidays are the only times I really make time to get into it.  Our tradition is I buy boys matching themed shirts and deco out depending on the boy’s choice of theme for the year.  I’ve been obsessed with fondant decorative cakes since the 1st Bday Party up to now.  Party planning, as you Mom’s know is stressful but I do really enjoy the making part.  Since I’m not one to make things from scratch, much credit to Pinterest and other sites for the ideas!  Comment below if you want specifics on how I made certain things.

Andrew’s 1st Bday Party: Jungle Forest Theme

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Anthony’s 2nd Bday Party: Froggie Theme

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Anthony’s 3rd Bday Party: Train Theme

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Andrew’s 4th Bday Party: Thomas The Train!

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Andrew’s 7th Bday Party: Minions!!

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Anthony’s 5th Bday Party: Disney’s Where’s My Water?

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Andrew’s 8th Bday Party: M&M’s Lunch &  Arcade

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2015-02-14 2015 Valentines for Class

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2013 Valentines

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What are you thinking about?

Autism Avenue with Mama & Son

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Sometimes I stare into your beautiful almond shaped eyes
And wonder what you’re wondering about
Curious at what you see
And how you see it
Try to think the way you think
Feel what you must be feeling
Gather what your mind must be processing
No matter what it may be you’re pondering over
Or observing
I only wish it brings you happiness

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From Worrying to Dreaming……

I often worry about my family’s life.  What my autistic son’s future will be like if my husband and I left this earth.  Will Anthony take care of him?  Would I want him to have that responsibility.  I guess we just have to see and let him decide on his own.  How independent will Andrew become?  Enough to live on his own. Enough to fend off the bad people and avoid bad situations.  Will he be okay…

As much as I worry, I dream just as much to escape my scary reality.  How wonderful it would be to travel to every part of the world.  To experience life in multi facets.  To see and touch corners of the world.  To delve into a variety of cultures for a few days and be lost in new flavors, sights, and experiences.

Generalizing his coping skills

Late post from 7/26/14

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This looks like an ordinary pic of a 7 year old. In my eyes and to those who know Andrew well, seeing him sitting calmly and knowing this kayak ride was free of anxiety and high energy is huge!  This Lil guy had a rough week: a traumatizing hospital procedure and a dreadful 2 hour speech therapy eval.  Through them he utilized the skills he’s been equipped with, to the best of his ability.  Before the dental procedure held at a hospital, he didn’t need assistance walking from pre-op to the the surgery room.  He did freeze in the hall where way too many staff nurses were staring at him.  Andrew crouched while clutching on his blankie, started crying and said, “There’s too many people here!!”  That’s huge!  He was a big boy and finally walked into the OR.  When the RNs finally had to carry him on to the table, he cried and said “Mommy I don’t want to go to sleep!”  It was really hard and emotional for me to watch that followed by the doctor applying the mask to his face.  I could hear him struggle and try to talk but he passed out.

During an annual speech evaluation, Andrew was pretty tired.  I made the mistake of scheduling it the same week as his procedure.  He did well overall but made a few comments like this is too long or I’m done but he kept going answering questions and working.

As his mom, who’s traveled down this road with him for 7 years, I am so proud of how much he has progressed and how hard he tries everyday to do all the things that come naturally to 7 years olds, but have to be taught to him.